12 February 2007
Have you said it? Have you shown it? Do you mean it?
Don’t be mistaken. I’m not hinting anything because Valentine’s is two days away. If you know what love is, I’m sure you would commit to love everyday and to express it, hopefully, everyday too. My hubby and I believe everyday should be Valentine’s 🙂
I’m very touched by the love of my friends. They talked to me, listened to me and reminded me to eat and rest well. Others have sent me emails telling me how my updates have encouraged them and urged me to press on. My doctor was really kind. He commented on how different I looked last Friday when I went (I think it was the warm-coloured shawl I wore), that he was confident I won’t throw up and he told me to have fun (Fun? Chemo? I cringed in disbelief). He even said I would be in tip top condition to celebrate my birthday. Really? A friend said in her email – ‘Go forth in His strength…chemo is no Goliath, you are made stronger than that!’ Thank you for words of love and kindness.
You know what’s the best thing about friends? They give you LOTZ n LOTZ of HUGS!!!! Very tight, firm ones. But I can still breathe lah 🙂 I’ve been at the receiving end of these wonderful gestures of love. One of my doctors who is very sensitive and empathetic also encouraged me with a good hug. In fact with one of my girlfriends, we hugged each other at least three times within the hour we were catching up. Thank you for showing me your love. I’m available for more…oh…no….I’m ADDICTED!!!!
I’m so thankful that the children are home with me. They are a constant reminder that I must be real. It is difficult for us who have experienced life not to don any masks to protect ourselves. After all these years, it’s even tougher to take off those masks. However, over the last year, I’ve realised that when the masks are off and I’m more vulnerable, I can be thankful and are more ready to receive and appreciate love. Love from God, love from my family and love from my friends.
So how was my chemo with the new drugs? GOOD!!! Except that I threw up when I was given the anti-histamine. Otherwise I had no nausea, no body aches, no chills, no breathlessness or tightness in the chest. My only prayer is that whatever side effects I experience are ALL reversible. The doctor believes it’ll be a breeze for me. If the next 11 sessions are like the first and 3 out of 4 sessions, it’s finger pricks for blood tests, then each time, it would be a welcomed fellowship with a good friend.
Say it. Show it. Mean it.
Your heart needs it.
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
1 Corinthians 13:13